Hope all is well my friends

Let’s see an update on what is going on with us. Thursday evening after work I went to the airport to get Todd’s niece Cyndal ( lol she was named after a character from the Adventures of the Ewoks) and she spent the night with us. She is an absolute doll, So anyways when I got off at work at 2:30 went home packed our stuff, got the boys from school and we all took off for Payson. We had a real nice time, on Saturday Todd and I went for a ride on the bike and had a couple of beers. Cyndal took the kids out on the quads and watched some movies that night. We all came back down on Payson on Sunday and she left yesterday.

Todd’s dad is scheduled to have his feeding tube put in tomorrow, they will be starting his treatment of radiation and chemo sometime next week. He looks thinner and worse every time we see him. I am hoping that once they get the tube in and he gets some nutrition he will start feeling a bit better. He now can barely get down broth and water. I love that man and hate seeing him go through so much.

I hope the H’s are having a great time at Disney. Movieman call me!!!! Rob and Mei hope all is well, almost wedding time! Brig, hope your final weeks of being pregnant are going smooth!

Love you all!!!

Update On Todd's Dad

Well just got a call from Todd. He just heard from his mom, they are still at the doctor's office. Todd's dad has lost too much weight and is not well enough to have the reconstructive surgery. He will have to have chemo and radiation. They also are going to have to put a feeding tube in his stomach. This is awful, but the dr said in his current condition there is no possible way he could survive surgery. So the Dr is coordinating right now with the hospital in Payson to get him started. It is so sad to see such a sweet strong man start to deteriorate so quickly before your eyes. I know Mrs H can totally relate, it is very hard. I love Todd's parents so much. I just ask that everyone continue to pray for him and send loving thoughts this way.

I will update again when I have more details!

Love
Stephi

Women's Expo

It is April 8th and 9th. I am planning to go on Saturday the 8th. I hope Mrs H can come with me this year :-)

No more drinking during the day!!!

At war that is LOL Todd and I were in bed by 11 or 11:30 after a looooooong day of drinking and could not hang with Mr and Mrs H. We had such a great time while we were there though THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I once again managed to leave a pair of panties, I always seem to lose them and they were not even ones I had worn while there LOL Todd wants to get to work on building armor and starting to fight. I guess the sound of drums and the smell of campfire triggered something in him. Rylee was cute as could be on Saturday, the boys (including Todd) had a lot of fun playing with her. I love that little girl!

On an update note Todd's dad and mom will ber here tomorrow nighta as his dad has a surgical consult at 7am Wednesday, great news that his insurance will cover the reconstruction surgery. I will let you know what comes from that.

Mrs H call me or Todd if you want help cleaning the RV, he is home with Kenny today and would be more then happy to help!

Love you all!

Updates

Well let's see first Todd's dad's biopsy came back, definately cancer the good news is it has not spread. They can do either radiation & chemo or what they hope they can do as long as his insurance approves is a reconstruction where they remove the esophegeous and rebulid it with his own body's tissue. Once I know more I will let you all know.

Then yesterday I had let my friend Monica borrow my car for a few days and yesterday when she was getting out of the car at the gas station some chick hit the door with her car, thank God Monica had not put her leg out yet. the girl freaked yelling at Monica that she cannot call the cops or the girl and her boyfriend would be arrested, got in her car and took off. My boss and his son got the door shut again for me but we will need to get a new car door.

I am hoping to go out to the war Saturday for the day and night. Not sure if it will work out but we will see. i love you all!!!

Happy Love Day My Friends

Ok to the few of you who read this, you each get a special message today:

Todd- My love now and forever thank you for making me the happiest girl on earth! I love you baby!

Mrs H- I love our friendship, I cannot believe it has been a little over 10 years. You have been through so much with me, marriage, babies, divorce, good times and bad. I do not know what I would do without you! I love you!

Movieman- You always have been great to me, you have a heart of gold and I love ya for that. I am so glad we are friends. Thanks for always making me smile!

Mr H- You know I love ya, in a special Corky kind of way LOL You are a great friend too.

Rob - I am so happy you have finally found the love that you so deserve. You are a great friend, a sweet person and I am so happy we can hang out again now that your pet Rhinos have left. Love ya sweetie!

Brig - Well of course I still think you are weird, bit I love reading your blog and I am getting to understand you more and more with each post. Thank you for the prayers for my dad and for Todd's, that means alot and makes you that much less weird LOL I know you have a heart of gold and that at the end of the day is all that matters.

Mei - Here is a huge hug and love from Arizona! I had such a great time chatting with you Sunday. You are a special person and I am so happy that you have brought love, laughter, happiness and hope into my friend Rob's life. Best wishes to both of you and I cannot wait to meet you!!!

Ok there it is, my mushy I love you to all of those that read my blog! I am blessed with a few close friends and the love of my life. It is a good day, no matter how money broke I am I do know I am rich in friends and love!!!!

Been all over Northern Arizona

Well everyone an update. We came up to Payson on Thursday morning, Todd and I that is. His dad is in pretty good spirits, his mom is a wreck. So we hung out, went out with his dad for a ride on the Harley's, it was real nice. Then Thursday night I made dinner for everyone, as I did not want his mom to have to do anything. Well I called my dad that night, he is not doing good, his iron levels have dropped so drastically low they had to take him off the chemo-like treatment he is on for his Hep C. He sounded awful, I am worried about him as my step mom just had back surgery last week and will not be able to do much of anything for the next 3-6 months. So anyways dad had a dr's appointment in Holbrook Friday and would then get my step mom from Flagstaff Medical. Well instead so my step mom did not have to wait 3 hours after being dischared to get her ride home to Pinetop, Todd and I went and got her from the hospital, then met my dad in Holbrook, then came back to Payson.I was so tired, no cooking that night I let Domino's handle it LOL Then Saturday I had to go get the boys in Phoenix and bring them back up to Payson, so Todd's mom drove with me, we got the kids then went to Mervyn's, she bought each the boys a cute pair of pj's, got me a beautiful shirt and a gorgeous white silky nightgown with amazing bead work on the trim. She is such a nice lady, I love spending time with his family. That gave Todd time to change the oil on the Harley's, fill up all the tanks on them and go with his dad for a ride. We got back and Todd and his dad took the boys on the quads for awhile, they are taking them to the desert today to ride. Will likes riding with Todd's dad as he is conservative like Will when it comes to that kind of thing and Todd and Kenny are two nut cases!

Todd has been so incredible with the boys, every day I look at him and realize I am falling more in love with him everyday. I am so blessed to have him.I hope I can be there for him the way he needs me to be right now. I love him and would do anything for him. Well guys I love you all too! I am on IM with Mei so I am going to let you go!

Love
me

Bummer News

Just found out today that Todd's dad has cancer in his esophagus. Todd and I are heading up in the morning to spend some time with his mom and dad. I will keep you posted. Love you all!

Hanging in there

I guess that is what you can say I have been doing since finding out all the exciting new news about my children's father losing his job and not letting me know, which means the kids have no medical coverage. Well as most of you know I did apply yesterday for state medical care for them, I also told my ex I want full custody until he gets his act together, he said no, I told him he really should think about that answer again, cause if he does not agree I will just go file for it. Hmm let's see he will be jobless and living with his jobless pregnant wife at his mom's, I on the other hand have been at my job almost a year, may only make 31,000 a year but it is a job and at my place the boys have their own rooms and their own beds. Now whom do you think would win this one???

Todd has been my rock through all this; I do not know what I would do without him. He told me that while he will never be the kids dad or ever dream of taking his place he will be there for them and be a good father like figure for them. That meant a lot to me. He helps me be stronger and stand up for myself, give me the backbone I need. He told me the other night that I am a complete sweetheart and while that is wonderful to be (especially if you are Todd) that I do allow myself to get walked on because I do not want to hurt anyone else's feelings. He hit that on the head. This time is different those are my babies, I want only the best for them, and that includes the best for Bill, for if his life is in order and good, then my kids will reap the benefits of that. I have never once questioned his love for them I just choose to not have my kids be around the pot and stuff. As Bill asked last night and many of you are thinking, "You did not have a problem with it when we were living together" that is what many people seem to not get. I am not the same person I was back then, I do not want my kids around that, I do not smoke cigarettes in my house, let alone pot, I keep my home very very clean, I take care of myself, eat my veggies, etc etc, I am so different. I am also very happy with what I have done for myself and hate when people seem to think I still think and do things the same. I do not! I am not into whoring it up, gorging myself on food and all the bad things I did in the past. I want my children to be able to look up to me and respect me for taking pride in them, our home and myself. I am in love and I choose to be 100% faithful to him, I would not do a one-night thing to satisfy a quick need and then end up losing what will probably be a lifetime relationship.

I am so blessed with the friends I have also, Mrs. H has always been the best, supported me even when I made dumb decisions, and not saying I told you so to my face when they blew up in my face, Movieman for always making me laugh or ponder when I talk to him, Mr. H for kicking my ass when I get too big for my britches :-) and Rob for being easy to talk to and not taking it out on me I was once married to his old pet Rhino.

I love you guys~