Just have to scream it

I AM SO FRIKKING IN LOVE WITH TODD IT IS NOT EVEN FUNNY!!!!! Ok I now return you to this regularly boring blog lol!!!

Stupid tests

Your 2005 Song Is

Don't Cha by the Pussycat Dolls "Dont cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me Dont cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me" What happens in 2005, stays in 2005!

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Element Is Your Love?

Congrats!!!

I just wanted to wish the very best to Rob and Mei as they get married tonight! I am very happy for both of you!

Save the date!

It is official Todd and I are engaged. We are getting married on September 1, 2007. Check out our wedding website www.huntandboynton.weddings.com

Love you all! Mrs H is my MATRON of honor :-)

SO sad and mad at the same time....

I just got a call from my friend Andrea at American Express and found out a guy I had been very close friends with when I worked there killed himself over the weekend. He actually did it in the parking lot at work. His wife called to see if he was working OT, as he had not come home, after a while they sent security to look for his car and a security guard found him. He had shot himself. We had been on the same team together for 2 years; he was one of my biggest cheerleaders when I was going for my team leader position. Russ was a very depressed guy, he weighed over 400 pounds, had wanted surgery like I had and I tried so hard to help him get approval for it, but he was in such bad health from diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea etc that it was hard for him to get. His depression got worse after his wife lost her job with their second baby on the way, money was terrible and then his dad died. I guess he just never recovered.

Suicide is the most selfish thing in the world someone can do. No matter how much I hated my abusive molesting stepfather I hated seeing what it did to my mom and his family when he killed himself. Russ has two little boys under the age of 9 that will never get to have their dad around for graduation, weddings, for that man to man talk and that just pisses me off he could do that to them.

Life is to friggin short with the life-line the fates have for us, why make it shorter by stopping it yourself. Today I was stressing about some of my issues with bills. Forget it that is not going to be a problem today, I am just going to focus on what I have positive in my life, my children, Todd, my family (both by blood and my chosen family whom are my friends) and surround myself in their love and hope all of them know how much I love and care for them. What is weird is along those lines before I heard what happened I had told Todd via text that "life to short to ponder what the head thinks, that I will go with my heart as that is what truly matters" talk about a big fat slap in the face wake up call.

To my old friend Russ, may your pain be gone. I will miss knowing you are no longer there to pass along a funny email to. I wish I could have been there more for you. What you did was selfish and horrible to do, but that does not stop the fact that you were loved and cared for. Maybe your friends like myself should have told you that more, maybe that would have made a difference. Well I have learned a lesson, no matter how boring, repetitive, annoying etc listening to a friend complains, bitch, whine, moan, etc I will be there and listen. I will also make sure all my friends know how much I love them.

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!

More stupid tests

Your Birthdate: December 27

You are a spiritual soul - a person who tries to find meaning in everything. You spend a good amount of time meditating, trying to figure out life. Helping others is also important to you. You enjoy social activities with that goal. You are very generous and giving. Yet you expect very little in return. Your strength: Getting along with anyone and everyone Your weakness: Needing a good amount of downtime to recharge Your power color: Cobalt blue Your power symbol: Dove Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How Scary Are You?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people. You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together. Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly. People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Stupid Test

You Are 68% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

How Evil Are You?

No baby

Hey quick update I did get my period on Sunday so no baby. I think in the future we both would like one, but that will not be for awhile. I figure if I have another on I want to do it by the time I am 35, well I am only 33 so I have two years to do it! LOL

Love you all great party Saturday Mrs H!

So Much Going On

Well yesterday Todd’s dad went to get the feeding tube put in and they were going to put a pic line into his neck to administer chemo. Well the tumor has gotten bigger, about the size of a golf ball so they were not able to put the line into his throat that had to go in through his stomach also and up into his throat that way. What should have been an hour and half procedure turned into a 5 hour operation. He is not doing well at all. For some STUPID reason they are not starting his chemo until the 7th. He will go in for 2 ½ hours one day a week, have a machine at home he needs to hook up to 4 hours a day and do radiation treatment 5 days a week. We are starting to fear the worst as this tumor is growing at an unbelievable rate.

Your prayers and thoughts are very much appreciated. I love this man so much, he has been so wonderful to me and my children since Todd and I started dating and I hate seeing him in so much pain and feeling so sick. He looked very ashy and grey over the weekend.

So what else is going on? Hmmm let me see…I have not had a period since January 30th, I am testing negative so it may just be stress. If I some how am pregnant (yes we have been using condoms) I would only be about 3 weeks, as we know when we did and did not have sex in February. I am thinking it is just stress and will not take a test again until sometime next week if I have not started.

My mom is coming for a visit! WOO HOO!!! She is flying out June 8th to surprise Will for his birthday on June 9th. I am going to need to get a hold of a refrigerator box, see my mom every year on the boys’ birthday sends them a “Nana Box” full of gifts. This year I want to cut the back of the refrigerator box out so my mom can stand in it and I can tell Will to come outside and see how big his Nana box is this year. Then have him open the back and there will be Nana! We have not seen her since July 2004, so I am so friggin excited. We will do a birthday party for Will on Saturday the 10th. So keep that date marked, yes Mrs H you will get to meet my mom this time, plus she really wants to see Rylee “The baby that came when I was there”.

Oh well there is my update and will post more when I know more. I love you all!!!

Hope all is well my friends

Let’s see an update on what is going on with us. Thursday evening after work I went to the airport to get Todd’s niece Cyndal ( lol she was named after a character from the Adventures of the Ewoks) and she spent the night with us. She is an absolute doll, So anyways when I got off at work at 2:30 went home packed our stuff, got the boys from school and we all took off for Payson. We had a real nice time, on Saturday Todd and I went for a ride on the bike and had a couple of beers. Cyndal took the kids out on the quads and watched some movies that night. We all came back down on Payson on Sunday and she left yesterday.

Todd’s dad is scheduled to have his feeding tube put in tomorrow, they will be starting his treatment of radiation and chemo sometime next week. He looks thinner and worse every time we see him. I am hoping that once they get the tube in and he gets some nutrition he will start feeling a bit better. He now can barely get down broth and water. I love that man and hate seeing him go through so much.

I hope the H’s are having a great time at Disney. Movieman call me!!!! Rob and Mei hope all is well, almost wedding time! Brig, hope your final weeks of being pregnant are going smooth!

Love you all!!!

Update On Todd's Dad

Well just got a call from Todd. He just heard from his mom, they are still at the doctor's office. Todd's dad has lost too much weight and is not well enough to have the reconstructive surgery. He will have to have chemo and radiation. They also are going to have to put a feeding tube in his stomach. This is awful, but the dr said in his current condition there is no possible way he could survive surgery. So the Dr is coordinating right now with the hospital in Payson to get him started. It is so sad to see such a sweet strong man start to deteriorate so quickly before your eyes. I know Mrs H can totally relate, it is very hard. I love Todd's parents so much. I just ask that everyone continue to pray for him and send loving thoughts this way.

I will update again when I have more details!

Love
Stephi

Women's Expo

It is April 8th and 9th. I am planning to go on Saturday the 8th. I hope Mrs H can come with me this year :-)

No more drinking during the day!!!

At war that is LOL Todd and I were in bed by 11 or 11:30 after a looooooong day of drinking and could not hang with Mr and Mrs H. We had such a great time while we were there though THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I once again managed to leave a pair of panties, I always seem to lose them and they were not even ones I had worn while there LOL Todd wants to get to work on building armor and starting to fight. I guess the sound of drums and the smell of campfire triggered something in him. Rylee was cute as could be on Saturday, the boys (including Todd) had a lot of fun playing with her. I love that little girl!

On an update note Todd's dad and mom will ber here tomorrow nighta as his dad has a surgical consult at 7am Wednesday, great news that his insurance will cover the reconstruction surgery. I will let you know what comes from that.

Mrs H call me or Todd if you want help cleaning the RV, he is home with Kenny today and would be more then happy to help!

Love you all!

Updates

Well let's see first Todd's dad's biopsy came back, definately cancer the good news is it has not spread. They can do either radiation & chemo or what they hope they can do as long as his insurance approves is a reconstruction where they remove the esophegeous and rebulid it with his own body's tissue. Once I know more I will let you all know.

Then yesterday I had let my friend Monica borrow my car for a few days and yesterday when she was getting out of the car at the gas station some chick hit the door with her car, thank God Monica had not put her leg out yet. the girl freaked yelling at Monica that she cannot call the cops or the girl and her boyfriend would be arrested, got in her car and took off. My boss and his son got the door shut again for me but we will need to get a new car door.

I am hoping to go out to the war Saturday for the day and night. Not sure if it will work out but we will see. i love you all!!!

Happy Love Day My Friends

Ok to the few of you who read this, you each get a special message today:

Todd- My love now and forever thank you for making me the happiest girl on earth! I love you baby!

Mrs H- I love our friendship, I cannot believe it has been a little over 10 years. You have been through so much with me, marriage, babies, divorce, good times and bad. I do not know what I would do without you! I love you!

Movieman- You always have been great to me, you have a heart of gold and I love ya for that. I am so glad we are friends. Thanks for always making me smile!

Mr H- You know I love ya, in a special Corky kind of way LOL You are a great friend too.

Rob - I am so happy you have finally found the love that you so deserve. You are a great friend, a sweet person and I am so happy we can hang out again now that your pet Rhinos have left. Love ya sweetie!

Brig - Well of course I still think you are weird, bit I love reading your blog and I am getting to understand you more and more with each post. Thank you for the prayers for my dad and for Todd's, that means alot and makes you that much less weird LOL I know you have a heart of gold and that at the end of the day is all that matters.

Mei - Here is a huge hug and love from Arizona! I had such a great time chatting with you Sunday. You are a special person and I am so happy that you have brought love, laughter, happiness and hope into my friend Rob's life. Best wishes to both of you and I cannot wait to meet you!!!

Ok there it is, my mushy I love you to all of those that read my blog! I am blessed with a few close friends and the love of my life. It is a good day, no matter how money broke I am I do know I am rich in friends and love!!!!

Been all over Northern Arizona

Well everyone an update. We came up to Payson on Thursday morning, Todd and I that is. His dad is in pretty good spirits, his mom is a wreck. So we hung out, went out with his dad for a ride on the Harley's, it was real nice. Then Thursday night I made dinner for everyone, as I did not want his mom to have to do anything. Well I called my dad that night, he is not doing good, his iron levels have dropped so drastically low they had to take him off the chemo-like treatment he is on for his Hep C. He sounded awful, I am worried about him as my step mom just had back surgery last week and will not be able to do much of anything for the next 3-6 months. So anyways dad had a dr's appointment in Holbrook Friday and would then get my step mom from Flagstaff Medical. Well instead so my step mom did not have to wait 3 hours after being dischared to get her ride home to Pinetop, Todd and I went and got her from the hospital, then met my dad in Holbrook, then came back to Payson.I was so tired, no cooking that night I let Domino's handle it LOL Then Saturday I had to go get the boys in Phoenix and bring them back up to Payson, so Todd's mom drove with me, we got the kids then went to Mervyn's, she bought each the boys a cute pair of pj's, got me a beautiful shirt and a gorgeous white silky nightgown with amazing bead work on the trim. She is such a nice lady, I love spending time with his family. That gave Todd time to change the oil on the Harley's, fill up all the tanks on them and go with his dad for a ride. We got back and Todd and his dad took the boys on the quads for awhile, they are taking them to the desert today to ride. Will likes riding with Todd's dad as he is conservative like Will when it comes to that kind of thing and Todd and Kenny are two nut cases!

Todd has been so incredible with the boys, every day I look at him and realize I am falling more in love with him everyday. I am so blessed to have him.I hope I can be there for him the way he needs me to be right now. I love him and would do anything for him. Well guys I love you all too! I am on IM with Mei so I am going to let you go!

Love
me

Bummer News

Just found out today that Todd's dad has cancer in his esophagus. Todd and I are heading up in the morning to spend some time with his mom and dad. I will keep you posted. Love you all!

Hanging in there

I guess that is what you can say I have been doing since finding out all the exciting new news about my children's father losing his job and not letting me know, which means the kids have no medical coverage. Well as most of you know I did apply yesterday for state medical care for them, I also told my ex I want full custody until he gets his act together, he said no, I told him he really should think about that answer again, cause if he does not agree I will just go file for it. Hmm let's see he will be jobless and living with his jobless pregnant wife at his mom's, I on the other hand have been at my job almost a year, may only make 31,000 a year but it is a job and at my place the boys have their own rooms and their own beds. Now whom do you think would win this one???

Todd has been my rock through all this; I do not know what I would do without him. He told me that while he will never be the kids dad or ever dream of taking his place he will be there for them and be a good father like figure for them. That meant a lot to me. He helps me be stronger and stand up for myself, give me the backbone I need. He told me the other night that I am a complete sweetheart and while that is wonderful to be (especially if you are Todd) that I do allow myself to get walked on because I do not want to hurt anyone else's feelings. He hit that on the head. This time is different those are my babies, I want only the best for them, and that includes the best for Bill, for if his life is in order and good, then my kids will reap the benefits of that. I have never once questioned his love for them I just choose to not have my kids be around the pot and stuff. As Bill asked last night and many of you are thinking, "You did not have a problem with it when we were living together" that is what many people seem to not get. I am not the same person I was back then, I do not want my kids around that, I do not smoke cigarettes in my house, let alone pot, I keep my home very very clean, I take care of myself, eat my veggies, etc etc, I am so different. I am also very happy with what I have done for myself and hate when people seem to think I still think and do things the same. I do not! I am not into whoring it up, gorging myself on food and all the bad things I did in the past. I want my children to be able to look up to me and respect me for taking pride in them, our home and myself. I am in love and I choose to be 100% faithful to him, I would not do a one-night thing to satisfy a quick need and then end up losing what will probably be a lifetime relationship.

I am so blessed with the friends I have also, Mrs. H has always been the best, supported me even when I made dumb decisions, and not saying I told you so to my face when they blew up in my face, Movieman for always making me laugh or ponder when I talk to him, Mr. H for kicking my ass when I get too big for my britches :-) and Rob for being easy to talk to and not taking it out on me I was once married to his old pet Rhino.

I love you guys~

See what my honey got me?

Todd is such a doll. I got a shiny object! LOL It of course is not an engagement ring, but an "I love you" and I am committed to you ring. It meant a lot that he did this for me. While I am not ready to get married again yet, this is the man I would like to marry someday.

Yesterday I went to the gym with Kris, it was fun having her to work out with. Todd is signing up today so we can all go together. We will all get buff and beautiful LOL

I am so excited for our friend Rob, he has met a wonderful lady FINALLY! He is getting rid of the riff raff and getting one of the coolest people I know as a roommate!

I cannot wait for all of us to get together and have some fun! Oh well I am going to get back to work!

Love
The DivaPrincess

With this ring

Yup Bill and Jenn are married, crazy to think of. Hard to believe 6 years ago when I met her I was looking in the face of my at the time husband's next wife. The boys were happy. Will told me that his family keeps getting bigger and bigger and that to him is so cool. I am glad they are ok with everything. That has been my biggest concern, I know I can seem over protective and all with them but they are my life.

I was a bit ticked when they dropped the boys off yesterday and told me they took them after school to watch them get married, I guess Hope was there too. I just do not think I could take off with the kids and get married and not give fair warning to Bill, "Hey today the kids lives are gonna change again". oh well not going to dwell on it. I am just happy that I no longer have any ties other then the kids to him. I do not need to know about his money problems, helping him with his budget, making dr's appointments, taking messages for the car finance people for him, etc. his wife can do that for him now.

You would think he would have learned from the first time that you do not get married just because someone is pregnant. Whatever. I will say if I ever get married again it sure as shit will not be in front of a judge and it will not involve ony 4 people being there. I will have a nice wedding, the dress, the maid of honor(Mrs H) and a flower girl (Rylee) and my family will be there, especially my mom. That of course will probably not be happeneing, but every girl can still have her dream in her head right?

oh well I love you guys, thanks for listening to my rant!