OMG I LOVE MY KID!

Check out the card Kenny had waiting for me this morning. The cat on the front's shirt says "I was born cute" that is supposed to represent Kenny.

The inside if you cannot make it out says:

"Mom your the best of the best. If you ask why? I have listed three meanings of how good you are"

1. You feed me everyday
2. You love me so I love you back
3. You make me happy when skies ar gray (spelled the way he did it)

I love you!!!

Making it Official

yes we are moving to Florida and it looks like we will paln on leaving the first weekend in March. It is a big move and I am a little scared but so excited too! I already talked to Bill and he supports the move, which was very important to me as he is the kids dad. I did not tell him Will wants to go, we will cross that bridge at the end of the school year as William will finish 4th grade where he is at. I am going to tell my dad and step-mom when I go up there tonight. I am taking off tomorrow to go see the musical that Will has the lead in. I am not sure how they will take it. I told Doug and while he will miss me he is happy for me. I will tell his dad when we get back from Thanksgiving vacation.

We were pre-qualified for a home loan and will start looking while we are in FL next week. So many things to do. We will be moving the wedding to FL, which means some people may not be able to come, but most of my family will be able to now, so that is cool.

Anyways that is what is going on here. We are so looking forward to our trip to Florida for Thanksgiving with my mom! I am excited Todd gets to meet my brother and sister-in-law,so it should be fun.

Love you all!!!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MR AND MRS H!!!!

I just wanted to wish the most wonderful friends I could ask for a happy and wonderful anniversary! It's been a crazy ride all these years, but here you two are. I am so happy for both of you and love you both very much!

Welcome home tonight also Mrs H! I missed you tons!

Love
The Diva Princess

Stolen from Brig's LJ

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Silly Adults!!!

This is messed up!

Wow a lot has happened this week. Where I do I start the story? Todd’s dad had always said that when he passes the motorcycle we had down here would become Todd’s. Well in the interest of not giving things away yet last Sunday his mom asked if we could bring the motorcycle up this weekend. Todd told her we would take care of it. Well we tried to call his mom Monday, her sister answered and said she was laying down and she would have her call us. No call. We tried again Tuesday, same thing happened but his aunt wanted to make sure we were bringing the bike up cause they have a potential buyer! We were like what? So anyways Wednesday his niece calls me wanting our address, she said the church wanted to send something so I gave it to her. Well last night imagine our surprise when I answer Todd’s phone and there is a guy on it saying he is with a towing company and is here to pick up the bike. THEY NEVER EVEN CALLED US TO TELL US HE WAS COMING! I am sure she called to the address for the towing company. Todd was devastated, he already had said now that dad is gone he would be the black sheep again and they since his mom is so impressionable and never wants conflict with her sisters or daughter she goes along with what they say. They had already been talking about her selling everything and moving back to Portland, which is probably what will happen. Todd is more upset about not being called or anything then the bike being gone. Like he said he has the necklace that his dad gave him the last time we saw him and the St Christopher pendant he was wearing when he died. He does not want anything else. He feels he has not only lost his dad, but his mother and family too. I felt so bad for him. At this point he is just done with his entire family. He said that if he never talks with them again he would be fine with that and that he is grieving the loss of a family not just a dad. He said he is so glad to have me, the boys and my family to call his.

So that is what is going on here. We are just going to go on living our life, planning our future and have him check out Florida while we are there because now the thought of moving after the wedding and being near my family, one that loves each other and treats each other with respect is very appealing to him.

On a lighter not I passed my test for my Life Insurance Producer License yesterday! Woo Hoo! I did not think I would pass as I had just taken the class the day before Roger died and I did not really get to study right after it. But I retained enough to pass!

Going to Miss a Great Man

Hi everyone, this is being posted to a blog and 2 message boards so pardon me if you do not recognize some things. As you all know Tuesday we got a call from Todd’s dad that he was given two months to live. Well at 4:15 that afternoon I got a call from Todd, his mom called and told us his dad collapsed and was being taken to the hospital and to get our asses up to Payson NOW. So we went up, pretty much expecting to spend some time with him and probably come back the next day, like the last time he went to the hospital. Well when we got there he was on a ventilator and his stats were really bad, his blood pressure was like 43/25. They gave him medicine to try and pick up the vitals and make him comfortable and said we could discuss options in the morning. So Todd and I decided to stay at the hospital and send his mom home with her sister to get some sleep. They moved Roger to ICU and we were with him there for about 2 hours before they gave him some Verced so he could sleep and rest. Well I went out to make a phone call, not a minute after leaving Todd called telling me to call his mom and get in there his dad was fading fast, when I walked in the room (not even two minutes after I had left) Todd looked at me and said “He is gone” we just sat there. It was awful, Todd went outside to meet his mom and aunt, and I stayed there with Roger and just lost it. I loved that man so much, he was a wonderful person, treated me like gold and I was just so blessed to have known him. We had Kenny all this time; he was watching TV lying on the floor in the waiting room. He behaved so well, he asked to come say bye to Grandpa after he passed, and we let him. I feel it is important if a child is mature enough to handle it to not tell them no and have them never have that closure. Of course we had planned on being there only a night so we had very little clothes and with all the family coming in we ended up staying at a hotel, had to buy some more clothes for Kenny and Todd (I being a woman did have a couple of outfits) but I did have to buy something to wear to the memorial service yesterday. Can we say hello overdraft city? Urrgghhh oh well nothing I can do about it now. My ex husband and his wife were very nice, they brought Will down to us Friday from Show Low so that he could be there for the services. Will loved Grandpa Roger, they had a very tight bond and it was very important for him to be able to say goodbye. Actually when we met with the Pastor on Saturday to talk about Roger and his life we all shared great memories and at the end Will said “I just want to say he was the greatest man I ever knew” It was very emotional. I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers that have been passed on. In lieu of flowers we did ask for donations be made to the American Cancer Society, in the name of Roger E Boynton, just to let everyone know in case they feel they would like to. The service was beautiful, but now Todd, Kenny and I are home and are ready to grieve together and move on. It was very hard to do with so much craziness and family and all that up there. Last night after the service our best friends Kris and Dave took us out to dinner, it was very nice. Then my ex husband and his wife came to pick up Will and take him back to Show Low. Oh well I have a ton to do here at work. Thank you again everyone, your caring thoughts and prayers mean a lot.

Funny Stolen From Email from Mrs H

I was "I ran over my brother because I am cool" Doug here at work was "I choked on your mom cause that's how I roll" LMAO!!!! I do not even need to know the shirt color to see the humor in Daves (Nov 28th) or my ex Bill's (04/19) LMAO

You all have to try this..it is hilarious.and couldn't we all use a laugh that doesn't cost anything???? This is funny - type out the sentence you end up with in the subject line and forward to your friends....and also, send it back to the person that sent it to you. Pick the month you were born:>

January--I kicked>

February--I loved>

March--I smoked >

April--I dry humped>

May--I choked on>

June--I murdered>

July--I did the Macarena with>

August--I had lunch with>

September--I danced with>

October--I sang to>

November--I yelled at >

December--I ran over>>

Pick the day (number) you were born on:

>1-------a birdbath>

2-------a monster>

3-------a phone>

4-------a fork>

5-------a Mexican>

6-------a gangster >

7-------my cell phone>

8-------my dog>

9-------my best friends' boyfriend>

10-------my neighbor>

11-------my science teacher>

12-------a banana>

13-------a fireman>

14-------a stuffed animal >

15-------a goat>

16-------a pickle>

17-------your mom>

18-------a spoon>

19-------myself>

20-------a baseball bat>

21-------a ninja>

22-------Chuck Norris>

23-------a noodle >

24-------a squirrel>

25-------a football player>

26-------my sister>

27-------my brother>

28-------an ipod>

29-------a permanent marker>

30-------a llama>

31-------A homeless guy >>

>Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:

>White----------because I'm cool like that>

Black-----------because that's how I roll.>

Pink------------because I'm NOT a homosexual.>

Red------------because the voices told me to. >

Blue-----------because I'm sexy and I do what I want>

Green---------because I hate myself.>

Purple---------because I'm cool.>

Gray----------because I was drunk>

Yellow--------because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars >

Orange -------because I hate my family.>

Brown--------because I was high.>

Other-------because I'm a ninja.>

None--------because I cant control myself>>

Now type out the sentence you made in the subject line and forward to >your friends. And don't forget to send it back to the person that sent it >to you

Update on things going on

Hey everyone,

Well I have had quite a past few days. We went camping at Bartlett Lake for little Kenny’s 8th birthday and it was a great time. Yesterday I was sitting here at work just doing my thing when the door to the office opened and I almost fell over! It was my ex husband, his wife, their new son and my Will! I was so excited I had not seen my son in almost 2 months and did not plan on seeing him until Thursday night. It was such a wonderful surprise. Will had the day off school and they had stuff to do in the valley that they cannot in Show Low, like Costsco, Fry’s electronics etc. So on a whim they came down. I did not tell Kenny when I got home, I just told him I was taking him on a “date” to Long John Silver’s, his face when we walked in and he saw all of them was great! He had not met his baby brother Shay yet, so that was really cool. Bill’s mom came to dinner and it was great seeing her also.

I had some bad news yesterday, too. Todd’s dad had a small mass removed about 2 weeks ago from where his feeding tube had been, it is cancer. They also determined he has a cancerous tumor in his groin and on the back of his head. He has been waiting over a week now for the insurance company to approve a CAT scan so we can find out how much it has spread, but I do not think it is good if the cancer that started in his esophagus is now causing a mass in his abdominal area and tumors in his groin and on the back of his head. I just burst into tears, I love that man so much and it is a very difficult time. Todd’s mom had major surgery on her foot a week ago and cannot walk or anything. We are spending this weekend in Forest Lakes (between Payson and Heber) with my boss and his wife, my boss’s son (who I work with also) and his family. We were planning on going up Friday and getting William from dad and taking him with us. But in light of all this we decided to take Thursday off also. We will drive up early Thursday morning to Payson and spend the day there, then go get Will ( we will meet in Heber) come back and spend the night with Todd’s parents. The cabin my boss got for us for the weekend does not allow check in until 3:00pm so we will have most of the day Friday with them also.

Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers if you can. I would certainly appreciate it. Tomorrow is Todd’s birthday, so we will celebrate that also. Tonight we have Todd’s catechism class and then tomorrow night is Kenny’s. They needed someone to teach the 5th grade class so I will be doing that J I volunteered and Todd is my teacher’s aide so it should be fun! Love to all and will post again when I can! Oh and I have a ton of new pictures from birthday parties, camping, miscellaneous sill pictures etc on my yahoo photos which can be found at http://photos.yahoo.com/irish_angel72

Phillip's Party Pictures

Well the one time camera I used this time sucked! Here are two pics and the rest can be found at http://photos.yahoo.com/irish_angel72

Love you all! hernia surgery tomorrow so I will be out of th loop for a few days!

Roller Coaster of Emotions

Wow so much has gone on the past 24-48 hours that have caused so many emotions in me it is not even funny. First off Bill and Jenn welcomed their new baby Shay into the world at 3:00am on August 17th. He weighed 6.2 ounces and was 19 & ½ inches long. His blood sugar was low so he was on an IV but other then that he was healthy. I guess he started going into distress at the end of the labor (I heard this from my step-mom nobody else tells me anything). So anyways my emotional thing started on Wednesday night, I called Bill’s to talk to Will like 5 times no answer, called my dad and step-mom as that is where Will goes after school, no answer. I finally called my little sister to see if she knew where my dad was and she said “Oh they left me a message they were going to Bill’s with Will to get Will’s clothes cause Jenn is in labor at the hospital” Ok something seems wrong to me that my little sister knew where my kid was and I have not a clue. But I got over it. Then to hear my step-mom talk about going to see “their” grandbaby yesterday really had me a little wigged out. I think it is weird they are closer to Bill then to me it seems. Oh well something else I just need to deal with!

Then the next morning when Bill called to tell us about the baby I was very happy that he was ok, but made me yearn for a baby even more (I cannot wait one more year and we will start trying) plus I felt for Kenny when I told him “You are a big brother now” and he said “Only up there down here I am still the baby”. I just do not want him to have the middle child syndrome, which is even worse since he does not see or talk to his dad much. I do not want him to ever feel “less then”. The Baron and I will do all we can to make him feel special, I just felt bad for him. He is happy about his baby brother but ha a lot of mixed emotions. He told me it is weird to have a brother and not have me as its mother. Some things a 7 year old mind just cannot always wrap around a concept like “Half-Siblings”. Oh and then to hear my step-mom talk about going to see “their” grandbaby yesterday really had me a little wigged out. I think it is weird they are closer to Bill then to me it seems. Oh well something else I just need to deal with!

But yes my clock is tick, tick, ticking!!!

Then I will not use names on here but I have a friend that from the way everything is pointing used one of her customer’s credit cards fraudulently to pay a bill of her own. I am so mixed between anger, as this is so stupid and because I recommended this friend to their employer makes me feel like crap, I know this employer will not look at me different but still I did refer this person. Second I am feeling so terribly bad for them as they never told me just how bad their situation was. There is always another option and I wish I could have helped this person to come up with a different solution, as now they could be really fucked. I know the customer did call the police and after working at American Express I know credit card companies do prosecute to the fullest extent of the law. I am very worried about this friend. I know money troubles, as do most of my friends that read this, but there is always another way. I just wish they could have felt that they could talk to me. I hope I have not failed them as a friend and that is why they felt they could not open up to me.

I love all my friends and will stand behind this one as they face the music. While I do not agree or support the act I love the person and can look beyond that and my own anger. I will try to be the friend they need right now, I am not here to judge. I know some of my friends may laugh as they do not share the same beliefs as me, but for me I will pray for my friend, be a good Christian and not cast judgment, I will be there to love and try to help. I just need to ask God for the strength to help me look past everything and do the right thing. I try to do this in all of my friendships. Whether or not you believe in God and that Jesus died for our sins does not mean that I do not love you all and value your friendship any less. For those non-believers I still pray everyday for you and your families and that God watch over and protect you because that is part of my faith.

I do love you all, I look forward to seeing everyone at Mr. and Mrs. Rheaume’s tomorrow and Mrs. H do not forget weigh and measurements tomorrow see you at 9:30am at Curves!

***Mrs. H real quick this is especially for you. You are the one friend that has never failed me, never been dishonest or try to sugar coat something to make me feel better. You have been the kick in the ass when I needed it, a shoulder to cry on, someone to laugh with and share life’s victories with. Thank you so much for my being my best friend all these years. I may not have always been as good a friend as I should have been to you, but you have always been there and I thank you for that and I love you!!!***

Kenny's First Day of School!!!

Well after the little fiasco of them also withdrawing Kenny, not just William from school he was all good to go! Here is some pictures of my handsome little 3rd grade man!

Wow a major anniversary for me

Hey fellow bloggers,

Some of you may have recieced the email that had this but I wanted to make sure it was archived on my blog for me!

Well 4 years ago tomorrow was my weight loss surgery. I was 335 a week before surgery, last week at my Dr's office I was 158. That is a 177 pounds lost! This is a post I put on a national support group website I belong to and on my Dr's message board.

If you are reading this blog it means somewhere along the line in these past 4 years you were there for me,(as only my favorite people even have this blog site) whether it was before surgery or a few years after, you were there and I feel you are all true blessings from God. Thank you for all you have done for me. Your love, support and friendship means more to me then you will ever know!

4 years ago today, I was drinking chicken broth and apple juice as I had down the Go-Lytely the night before per Dr Simpson's orders. The next morning I knew was going to be the first day of the BEST of my life. That is what I kept saying as I looked at my wonderful son's. Hard to believe William had just turned 5 and Kenny was almost 4. I was going to miss William's first day of Kindergarten, that killed me inside but I knew if I did not do this I would very likely miss his graduation from high school, his getting married and all the wonderful things the Lord had planned for him, as well as his brother.

So there I was, 335 pounds at my last check a week before, married to a nice man but I was not in love, I was depressed, felt miserable and the only good thing I had going for me were those two wonderful boys. I was doing this for them as much as them. "This" was my Duodenal Switch.

Fast-forward 4 years later. Here I am a mom still to those two little boys, who lost 172 pounds and are now happy and healthy! My kids tell me they have the most fun and beautiful mom of all their classmates. I finally had found the strength to leave a marriage that was not fair to either of us. I am now engaged to the love of my life, and hey my ex found the love of his life and they are going to have a baby any day! I am HAPPY!!!! Now every day is not some amazing day, but you know what? Everyday I wake up and it does not hurt to stand up due to the weight my feet have to carry all day, I have a slew of clothes to choose from that I actually like the way I look in them, I have energy to get up before the alarm and make breakfast for my house. There has been a lot of change, my oldest now lives with his dad, but being healthy in my mind, not just my body I recognize that his dad and him are close and because he chooses to live there does not mean he loves me any less. I have changed my thinking, people are not out to get the fat girl, and they are there to support me in my decisions. My friends are amazing, my fiancé Todd is a dream come true, he knows all about my weight issues I had, the years of bulimia, the WLS and he supports me and says, "That has made you who you are today".

I am truly blessed to have been a member of this site, the support I received before and after surgery were amazing and I hope my story can assist others. Please feel free to read my whole story on my profile and also check out my personal web page www.geocities.com/stephileeaz.

A few quick tips for you:

1. Take measurements before surgery...oh man they help during times the scale does not move cause those inches are coming off!

2. Do what your Dr advises, people on here will share their ideas of what you need to do but in the long run Dr knows best!

3. Re-train your brain! There is no thing as a bad food, bad choices maybe but do not look to food as an enemy. Food was made to be good nourishing the body, take care of that body with healthy choices and you will do well.

4. As Dr Simpson says Protein, Water, Walk and Walk some more!

5. EXERCISE!!!! It feels so good, start off in little increments if you must but MOVE! It is amazing what it does not just for the body but your soul.

6. Be good and honest to yourself, love yourself!

Thanks for letting me ramble!

Love and Hugs!

Love Stephi

happy days and bitchy redheads

Hey everyone,

Well let’s see last night the Baron and I went to our pre-marital counseling at the church. We were going to see how we did on the 178 questionnaire we had done back in June. We were told by the deacon that we are so compatible that it is boring LOL We had 5 questions we either did not agree on or we answered the same but was not what the “stock” answer for the test was considered as correct. It was fun we laughed a lot then the deacon gave us a booklet to go through together and basically with this book we create our whole wedding ceremony, the readings, the prayers, the vows etc. Cool stuff man!

So right now I am ready to beat down a specific redhead. I cannot believe that anyone would say that Ry is undisciplined and basically a child nobody wants to be around! COME ON! I love that kid, she listens incredibly well, has manners, has a full routine at home. I just do not get it. I guess some people try to find faults in others so they do not have to look at their own issues! That is my take on it because I know this persons child, and while he can be a great kid if he chooses usually he is fighting, whining or doing something not appropriate. I know this is hard I have gone through it with Will, but the difference is I accepted that my child had issues, I spoke with his teachers about it, worked a plan, had him in counseling to work on his issues etc. Is he perfect? Heck no neither of my boys are, but by accepting Will’s problem and working on it we are all better off for it.

Ok that is my lil bitch session on that. UNCLE TODD AND AUNT STEPHI LOVE THE RYSTER AND YES SHE IS FRIGGIN PERFECT!!!! She is after all a princess like her mum and me J

Love you all!

Quiz Stolen from Brig's Blog

You scored as Captain Jack Sparrow. Roguish,quick-witted, and incredibly lucky, Jack Sparrow is a pirate who sometimes ends up being a hero, against his better judgement. Captain Jack looks out for #1, but he can be counted on (usually) to do the right thing. He has an incredibly persuasive tongue, a mind that borders on genius or insanity, and an incredible talent for getting into trouble and getting out of it. Maybe its brains, maybe its genius, or maybe its just plain luck. Or maybe a mixture of all three. Captain Jack Sparrow 83% William Wallace 75% The Terminator 67% The Amazing Spider-Man 67% Indiana Jones 63% James Bond, Agent 007 63% Maximus 63% Lara Croft 58% Neo, the "One" 46% El Zorro 42% Batman, the Dark Knight 25% Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com

Look what I got!

one of the wonderful people we insure at my office had these delivered to me today. She just wanted to thank me for always helping them with anything they have questions on and being so nice to her! Wasn't that sweet! And yes believe it or not I am sweet and nice when I want to be!

My new rings!!!!

Ok seems Todd has been using the 50 bucks a week I thought he was using for lunch or whatever to use towards the down payment for my bridal set. It is white gold with 1 and 1/2 ct diamond with 1/2 carat additional on each band. Here are some pics. He took me to a nice dinner to give it to me and even got down on one knee when we got home and proposed again! LOL He is the best!

I am going to work out today after work and tomorrow with Kris. I have to go to my surgeons office today at 11:30 to see about getting my hernia repaired. I will let you all know what happens!

THANK GOD I GOT MY NAILS DONE YESTERDAY!!!!!

LOL A revisit to my blog one year ago

Hee Hee this is what I said on my blog exactly one year ago today...

"i think i am just going to give up on dating. If the right guy comes along and just sweeps me off my feet that will be cool, but I am done looking!!!

Wow how a year changes things!

Long time no post

Hey everyone. I have not posted in awhile so I thought I would do a quick one. First off, Phillip I will get your money to Kris to give you. thanks again for your help sweetie! I went ahead yesterday and did my weigh in and measurements at Curves, I should have waited until Saturday I was super bloated yesterday but figured I would go ahead and do it. Actually not as great as I wanted as I was also down and out for a week and did not get to work out, but started back again on Monday. Anyways I lost 2.5 pounds, and according to their body fat tool that they use 2 of those 2.5 pounds was pure body fat lost! I lost a quarter inch in my waist, half an inch on my upper thigh and a half inch on my upper arm (WooHooo as I have a strapless wedding gown) I did not gain or lose in my tummy or hips, but I GAINED A QUARTER INCH IN MY BUST!!! YES!!! So I lost where I wanted and gained where I wanted! I really like working out there, first time EVER that I look forward to going and working out.I had been down and out due to a cyst in a not so fun area. I am better now and thankful that is over.

We have Will with us until Wednesday, then him and Kenny are going to Show Low with their dad and step-mom. Will is going to be up there for good at that point as he starts school August 9th. Kenny will be there until August 5th, then he will spend a week with Todd's parents in Payson before coming back to start school on the 14th.this weekend we have no plans other then I am going to work out with Mrs H on Saturday morning. That will be a nice change form being so busy!

Hey do any of you have any anti-spy software? Our computer is screwed and we cannot connect to our internet server, there is no virus and I am guessing spyware screwed us up. We also have friggin windows 98 so if anyone has the discs to upgrade our system I would appreciate any help. I miss not being able to get online from at home. We have not been able to check email, go to myspace NOTHING!!

Oh well I better get back to work. I am so friggin tired. The Baron woke up at like 2Am sick with food poisoning or something, I felt so bad for him he was throwing up like there was no tomorrow. I could not get back to sleep so I got out of bed a little before 5am and did 5 flipping loads of laundry! After work I am going to get the boys, go to the store, come home and VEGETATE!!!Love you all!

The Diva Princess
also known as the Baroness

Happy Birthday!!!!

HAPPY HAPPY 34TH BIRTHDAY MRS H!!!! I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE THE BEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD ASK FOR!!!!