Phillip's Party Pictures

Well the one time camera I used this time sucked! Here are two pics and the rest can be found at http://photos.yahoo.com/irish_angel72

Love you all! hernia surgery tomorrow so I will be out of th loop for a few days!

Roller Coaster of Emotions

Wow so much has gone on the past 24-48 hours that have caused so many emotions in me it is not even funny. First off Bill and Jenn welcomed their new baby Shay into the world at 3:00am on August 17th. He weighed 6.2 ounces and was 19 & ½ inches long. His blood sugar was low so he was on an IV but other then that he was healthy. I guess he started going into distress at the end of the labor (I heard this from my step-mom nobody else tells me anything). So anyways my emotional thing started on Wednesday night, I called Bill’s to talk to Will like 5 times no answer, called my dad and step-mom as that is where Will goes after school, no answer. I finally called my little sister to see if she knew where my dad was and she said “Oh they left me a message they were going to Bill’s with Will to get Will’s clothes cause Jenn is in labor at the hospital” Ok something seems wrong to me that my little sister knew where my kid was and I have not a clue. But I got over it. Then to hear my step-mom talk about going to see “their” grandbaby yesterday really had me a little wigged out. I think it is weird they are closer to Bill then to me it seems. Oh well something else I just need to deal with!

Then the next morning when Bill called to tell us about the baby I was very happy that he was ok, but made me yearn for a baby even more (I cannot wait one more year and we will start trying) plus I felt for Kenny when I told him “You are a big brother now” and he said “Only up there down here I am still the baby”. I just do not want him to have the middle child syndrome, which is even worse since he does not see or talk to his dad much. I do not want him to ever feel “less then”. The Baron and I will do all we can to make him feel special, I just felt bad for him. He is happy about his baby brother but ha a lot of mixed emotions. He told me it is weird to have a brother and not have me as its mother. Some things a 7 year old mind just cannot always wrap around a concept like “Half-Siblings”. Oh and then to hear my step-mom talk about going to see “their” grandbaby yesterday really had me a little wigged out. I think it is weird they are closer to Bill then to me it seems. Oh well something else I just need to deal with!

But yes my clock is tick, tick, ticking!!!

Then I will not use names on here but I have a friend that from the way everything is pointing used one of her customer’s credit cards fraudulently to pay a bill of her own. I am so mixed between anger, as this is so stupid and because I recommended this friend to their employer makes me feel like crap, I know this employer will not look at me different but still I did refer this person. Second I am feeling so terribly bad for them as they never told me just how bad their situation was. There is always another option and I wish I could have helped this person to come up with a different solution, as now they could be really fucked. I know the customer did call the police and after working at American Express I know credit card companies do prosecute to the fullest extent of the law. I am very worried about this friend. I know money troubles, as do most of my friends that read this, but there is always another way. I just wish they could have felt that they could talk to me. I hope I have not failed them as a friend and that is why they felt they could not open up to me.

I love all my friends and will stand behind this one as they face the music. While I do not agree or support the act I love the person and can look beyond that and my own anger. I will try to be the friend they need right now, I am not here to judge. I know some of my friends may laugh as they do not share the same beliefs as me, but for me I will pray for my friend, be a good Christian and not cast judgment, I will be there to love and try to help. I just need to ask God for the strength to help me look past everything and do the right thing. I try to do this in all of my friendships. Whether or not you believe in God and that Jesus died for our sins does not mean that I do not love you all and value your friendship any less. For those non-believers I still pray everyday for you and your families and that God watch over and protect you because that is part of my faith.

I do love you all, I look forward to seeing everyone at Mr. and Mrs. Rheaume’s tomorrow and Mrs. H do not forget weigh and measurements tomorrow see you at 9:30am at Curves!

***Mrs. H real quick this is especially for you. You are the one friend that has never failed me, never been dishonest or try to sugar coat something to make me feel better. You have been the kick in the ass when I needed it, a shoulder to cry on, someone to laugh with and share life’s victories with. Thank you so much for my being my best friend all these years. I may not have always been as good a friend as I should have been to you, but you have always been there and I thank you for that and I love you!!!***

Kenny's First Day of School!!!

Well after the little fiasco of them also withdrawing Kenny, not just William from school he was all good to go! Here is some pictures of my handsome little 3rd grade man!

Wow a major anniversary for me

Hey fellow bloggers,

Some of you may have recieced the email that had this but I wanted to make sure it was archived on my blog for me!

Well 4 years ago tomorrow was my weight loss surgery. I was 335 a week before surgery, last week at my Dr's office I was 158. That is a 177 pounds lost! This is a post I put on a national support group website I belong to and on my Dr's message board.

If you are reading this blog it means somewhere along the line in these past 4 years you were there for me,(as only my favorite people even have this blog site) whether it was before surgery or a few years after, you were there and I feel you are all true blessings from God. Thank you for all you have done for me. Your love, support and friendship means more to me then you will ever know!

4 years ago today, I was drinking chicken broth and apple juice as I had down the Go-Lytely the night before per Dr Simpson's orders. The next morning I knew was going to be the first day of the BEST of my life. That is what I kept saying as I looked at my wonderful son's. Hard to believe William had just turned 5 and Kenny was almost 4. I was going to miss William's first day of Kindergarten, that killed me inside but I knew if I did not do this I would very likely miss his graduation from high school, his getting married and all the wonderful things the Lord had planned for him, as well as his brother.

So there I was, 335 pounds at my last check a week before, married to a nice man but I was not in love, I was depressed, felt miserable and the only good thing I had going for me were those two wonderful boys. I was doing this for them as much as them. "This" was my Duodenal Switch.

Fast-forward 4 years later. Here I am a mom still to those two little boys, who lost 172 pounds and are now happy and healthy! My kids tell me they have the most fun and beautiful mom of all their classmates. I finally had found the strength to leave a marriage that was not fair to either of us. I am now engaged to the love of my life, and hey my ex found the love of his life and they are going to have a baby any day! I am HAPPY!!!! Now every day is not some amazing day, but you know what? Everyday I wake up and it does not hurt to stand up due to the weight my feet have to carry all day, I have a slew of clothes to choose from that I actually like the way I look in them, I have energy to get up before the alarm and make breakfast for my house. There has been a lot of change, my oldest now lives with his dad, but being healthy in my mind, not just my body I recognize that his dad and him are close and because he chooses to live there does not mean he loves me any less. I have changed my thinking, people are not out to get the fat girl, and they are there to support me in my decisions. My friends are amazing, my fiancé Todd is a dream come true, he knows all about my weight issues I had, the years of bulimia, the WLS and he supports me and says, "That has made you who you are today".

I am truly blessed to have been a member of this site, the support I received before and after surgery were amazing and I hope my story can assist others. Please feel free to read my whole story on my profile and also check out my personal web page www.geocities.com/stephileeaz.

A few quick tips for you:

1. Take measurements before surgery...oh man they help during times the scale does not move cause those inches are coming off!

2. Do what your Dr advises, people on here will share their ideas of what you need to do but in the long run Dr knows best!

3. Re-train your brain! There is no thing as a bad food, bad choices maybe but do not look to food as an enemy. Food was made to be good nourishing the body, take care of that body with healthy choices and you will do well.

4. As Dr Simpson says Protein, Water, Walk and Walk some more!

5. EXERCISE!!!! It feels so good, start off in little increments if you must but MOVE! It is amazing what it does not just for the body but your soul.

6. Be good and honest to yourself, love yourself!

Thanks for letting me ramble!

Love and Hugs!

Love Stephi

happy days and bitchy redheads

Hey everyone,

Well let’s see last night the Baron and I went to our pre-marital counseling at the church. We were going to see how we did on the 178 questionnaire we had done back in June. We were told by the deacon that we are so compatible that it is boring LOL We had 5 questions we either did not agree on or we answered the same but was not what the “stock” answer for the test was considered as correct. It was fun we laughed a lot then the deacon gave us a booklet to go through together and basically with this book we create our whole wedding ceremony, the readings, the prayers, the vows etc. Cool stuff man!

So right now I am ready to beat down a specific redhead. I cannot believe that anyone would say that Ry is undisciplined and basically a child nobody wants to be around! COME ON! I love that kid, she listens incredibly well, has manners, has a full routine at home. I just do not get it. I guess some people try to find faults in others so they do not have to look at their own issues! That is my take on it because I know this persons child, and while he can be a great kid if he chooses usually he is fighting, whining or doing something not appropriate. I know this is hard I have gone through it with Will, but the difference is I accepted that my child had issues, I spoke with his teachers about it, worked a plan, had him in counseling to work on his issues etc. Is he perfect? Heck no neither of my boys are, but by accepting Will’s problem and working on it we are all better off for it.

Ok that is my lil bitch session on that. UNCLE TODD AND AUNT STEPHI LOVE THE RYSTER AND YES SHE IS FRIGGIN PERFECT!!!! She is after all a princess like her mum and me J

Love you all!

Quiz Stolen from Brig's Blog

You scored as Captain Jack Sparrow. Roguish,quick-witted, and incredibly lucky, Jack Sparrow is a pirate who sometimes ends up being a hero, against his better judgement. Captain Jack looks out for #1, but he can be counted on (usually) to do the right thing. He has an incredibly persuasive tongue, a mind that borders on genius or insanity, and an incredible talent for getting into trouble and getting out of it. Maybe its brains, maybe its genius, or maybe its just plain luck. Or maybe a mixture of all three. Captain Jack Sparrow 83% William Wallace 75% The Terminator 67% The Amazing Spider-Man 67% Indiana Jones 63% James Bond, Agent 007 63% Maximus 63% Lara Croft 58% Neo, the "One" 46% El Zorro 42% Batman, the Dark Knight 25% Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com

Look what I got!

one of the wonderful people we insure at my office had these delivered to me today. She just wanted to thank me for always helping them with anything they have questions on and being so nice to her! Wasn't that sweet! And yes believe it or not I am sweet and nice when I want to be!