I AM SO FURIOUS!!!!

So I am talking with my soon to be ex and he advises me he feels like he is being played with my whole moving to Florida thing. I asked what he means, he starts quoting stuff that was in an email to my mom!!! HE read my fucking emails!!! What is really funny is I had been joking with my mom about having a live in babysitter when I go, it was a joke!

He also thinks that the reason I did not want him dating a former friend of mine last year is that if he did and was happy I would not be able to move! WTF???? It had nothing to do with that it has to do with the fact SHE WAS MY FRIEND I thought that I would be ok and I wasn't and HE chose to not date her because of that I did not force him.

I am just so pissed I thought we were past this crap and we were building a friendship on trust. Well that is gone.

Me and the boys on Will's Birthday

A little lonely

Today I am feeling a little down and lonely. I do not know why, I have a place to live with an awesome roommate, I have two great goods, a pretty good job where I work for amazing people. I guess it is just I wish I had more time to spend with my friends. I do not have a lot of people I consider my close friends, those that I do know who they are. I miss doing things with them. I realize part of the problem is I cater to my exes moods and end up with the kids most of the time, to appease him. He never says he will not keep them, I can just tell by his body language he would rather be alone. Or if he is going to take them, my youngest always says he would rather stay with me, how can I say no to that cute little face?

Oh well things will get better. Any of my friends that read this please know that I love you and I realize I may seem like a flake at times. I really do not mean to be. I have still been fighting a depression and while that is not an excuse it may help you to understand where I am at. If Phillip reads this please know I am sorry once again about the movie thing, I am so glad we talked at Kris's that night, you are one of the coolest people I know and can see why Kris has stayed friends with you for all these years.

Have a great day everyone. I am going to go take my zoloft, snap out of this funk and go to the pool today with my Kenny Boo.

What a Week

Well belive it or not I got to the court house this week and filed the stupid paper for a default divorce, this way I do not need to wait for him to do his part anymore. I will win by default. Does anyone really win in divorce? hmm.... anyways i can call July 1st to set up the court date. That day I will appear and my divorce will be granted.

So to the great Kris, yes it is going to be done and this journey is almost over.