My Christmas Weekend

Well lets see:

Friday at about 8:00am we left to go to Payson, Todd, the boys and I. We had such a great time, I got his parent's hammered on white Russians and I spent hours talking with them I probably know way more about him then he would ever have liked me to know. LOL Well Friday night around 9:00 Todd came down with a fever and cough, it hit him like a ton of bricks, he got so sick. We came back down here Saturday and his parents came with us to help me wrap and do the beds cause we knew Todd was going to be in no shape to do any of it. Well Christmas morning comes and Todd's dad has come down with the crud, too. I was so pissed at my ex as he was supposed to have the boys over between 9 & 9:30 so we could all watch them do presents, they did not come until after 11. It was hard as this was my first Christmas not being there when they woke up. Todd said next year we get them Christmas Even and Christmas morning. Well Todd was still miserable he spent all day in bed, he was bummed, as was I, cause he could not come with me to my family's for dinner. That's ok I did have a nice time, my sister announced her engagement (thank GOD I was keeping that secret since Thanksgiving!) and my kids got spoiled again.

Well yesterday I woke up and guess who is sick now? Yup I feel like hell, Happy Birthday to me huh? This sucks. Oh well hopefully Todd and I will both be better by the weekend, we decided to celebrate everything together then. This weekend is all about Stephanie :-) We are going to my friend Andrea's for New Year's Eve, so that will be fun. I love you all! MERRY CHRISTMAS HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!!! (ok to the two sometimes 3 who read this) Oh and I was so surprised on Christmas I had a gift from Rob, that was very sweet of him!

My new smile

Well these were taken with a camera phone so they are not the best but you can get the idea. I am still very sore but other then that ok!

FINALLY~

Well I just got the call my dentures are finally in and I will be getting them today! WooHoo what a long friggin wait, but hey now i will have a great smile. So now I can start getting anxious over having 6 teeth pulled LOL Oh well.

I will let you guys know how things go when I am up to it. I am getting them tonight. My appointment is at 5:00pm.

Love
The Princess

The Quitting Smoking Chronicles

Well it has been since Sunday at 4:40pm since I had a smoke. I am doing ok with it, still get an urge once in awhile but I really do want to quit again. I think I am nuts trying to quit during the holidays, but figure if I can quit at this crazy time of the year then I am stronger then a lot of people LOL I will not lie the thought of not smoking when drinking sucks. If I could just smoke during that time I would be cool with it, but we shall see. I will take it a day at a time!

By the way this may sound mushy but I am so happy and so in love it is awesome! I love having Todd in my life, he is so awesome, treats me so well, is good to the kids, I think I found a keeper. He told me last night that I am the love of his life and he wants to be with me forever :-) that was sweet and made my night.

Ok enough of the mushy lol have a great day to the few that read this!

Love
me

FRIKKIN DELAY ON DENTAL WORK

Well I get there Friday all ready to go, they tell me that the denture is not made because they did not get a good record of my bite WTF??? Why was I not told this when I called almost a week ago to see if it was in? Guess the lab was supposed to call me and tell me I needed a bite exam, I was so upset and pissed. I did though get 200.00 knocked of my bill but now have to wait until December 9th. If it comes in before then, I will get it done right away.

Anyways the rest of the weekend was good, I was so bummed Friday that when we got home Todd said he knew how to cheer me up.....he brought out my Christmas tree and I got to put it up and decorate! Gosh I love that man. Oh and I quit smoking, has only been about 14 hours, but I am sick of the smell, my breath being yucky, the price and smelling like an ashtray. Wish me luck!

Love
The Diva Princess

New smile day!

Yup Friday is when I go in at 9am and get the rest of th top teeth pulled and get my new smile. I am so excited, the pain is not even a concern as I just cannot wait to have it done. Todd is off that day, too so he is taking me. Once I am feeling better I will let you all know how it goes and will post a picture of my new pretty smile.

Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends here, I love you guys! Even though I may not say it often enough I really am thankful to have you in my life!

Love
Stephi

So Sick of the Drama

I am so fucking sick of the dramam in my complex. I never had trouble there until about 1 & 1/2 months ago, that is when everything started changing. So I was just ready to drop all the crap and bitching about my neighbor and still will, but it is hard when you have another neighbor calling bitching at me because my son opens his big mouth and spews out a bunch of bullshit. Yup got a nasty call cause my downstairs neighbor from Mississippi was outside with her kids yesterday when Will ent out side and her youngest son said "Hey Will can you play?" well William responds "NO I cannot play with you, my mommy does not like you" I never said that crap, her kids are great kids, actually call me Miss Stephanie and say yes m'am and no m'am. Will comes up with all kinds of drama in his head sometimes and it makes life hard for me. He spins things all the time, if he does not dio a chore right suddenly it is because some kid at school said something mean to him making his whole day awful. Whatever, I am so done. I am making Will after school go down with me to clear this up. I just cannot wait for my lease to be done, Todd and I are going to rent a house then. Life will be so much easier without the complex drama. Then she also told me she thinks it is wrong that I will not let my kids play in the other neighbor from Oklahoma's house. WTF??? the bitch talks bad about me and on top of it all her husband smokes dope in there, she is always stressed caused of her 3 kids, sure let me make that better by allowing my kids in there. Whatever. I am just so annoyed!!!!

On another note, Todd moved in yesterday. We have a full house of stuff now which is nice. He has been very good to me, I am very happy with him!

Love
Stephi

Stupid Quiz time

The Romantic Princess

You are absolutely in love with love! Charming,
romantic, and feminine are all words that
describe you. You are a huge flirt and know how
to use your feminine wiles to get your way. You
are always on the lookout for the guy who will
sweep you off your feet.

Role Models: Isolde, Juliet

You are most likely to: Free a cursed prince from a
terrible spell with a single kiss.


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Passionate Love

Right now is when everything's really starting to
heat up. And it's hot, hot HOT. You guys are
discovering just how fun certain things can be.
;) Your love is passionate and fiery and you
always drive each other wild with desire
whenever you're together. You would do anything
for each other. This is a fun time in your
life, but it can also be a little exhausting.


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Jerry Springer Episode

This was too funny! I went to this link javascript:ol('http://www.brainsluice.com/miscellanea/misc/jspringer.html');and when I did I entered in a few names, and some other stuff and it vreated this Jerry Springer episode LOL:

The Jerry Springer Show : Episode 627 : "Marriage Meltdown!"


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[The crowd starts chanting "Jerry! Jerry! Jerry!"]

Jerry: Tonight on "The Jerry Springer Show" we have a particularly interesting episode! Stephanie is here to finally confess something to a long-time friend, Kris. So everyone, please put your hands together for Stephanie!

[The crowd whoops and hollers]

Jerry: Okay, now Stephanie you're here to talk about someone aren't you?

You: Yes.

Jerry: And what is this other person's name?

You: Phillip.

[The crowd squeals with delight]

Jerry: Okay, okay, well Phillip, is actually here tonight ...

[The crowd squeals]

Jerry: But first we have a surprise for you Stephanie, because as it happens there is someone else here to see you! So let's bring out ... Todd!

You: What the HELL!!!

[Out of nowhere you pull out a Sword. Todd reaches for the Sofa. Out of the shadows Dave appears]

Dave: Wait everybody, wait!

Jerry: Yes, everybody let's just calm down for a moment here. First, tell us why you're here Todd.

Todd: Because I saw Stephanie and Dave making out at Wal Mart!

[The crowd goes absolutely insane]

Dave: That's a lie! I was home watching Desperate Housewives!

Jerry: [raising his hands] Hold on, hold on, I'm missing the problem here ... what exactly is the problem Todd?

Todd: Because I've recently been taking part in a sexual relationship with Kris who has recently become engaged to Dave.

[The crowd hollers, screams and whoops in an orchestra of orgasmic excitement]

Jerry: Okay, okay. Well why don't we bring Kris out here because Stephanie had something that they needed to tell them anyway about ... Phillip that's right!

Kris: [enters onto stage and saunters over towards you] What's the deal? I saw you outside getting it on with Phillip! You know how I feel about Phillip!

Dave: [screams] What? Why the hell did you ask me to marry you if you're in love with Phillip!

Kris: Because I knew that I could never have Phillip. But Stephanie promised me that they'd never hook up out of respect for my feelings!

Dave: What about respect for my feelings!

[Todd walks suddenly across the stage, embracing Kris]

Todd: Don't worry baby, you don't need any of them now that you have me.

[Again the crowd squeals]

Dave: Oh my God! Are you sick!?

[Dave runs across the room and wraps their arms around you tightly]

Dave: Stephanie take me away from all of this!

You: You see? That's the thing ... I'm ... well, I'm married ...

[The crowd does its bit]

Dave: Married?

[You nod]

Dave: Who the hell are you married to? When ... when did this happen? I don't understand!

You: The other day. In Vegas. I'm married to Phillip.

Kris: [screaming] WHAT!!!

Jerry: [grinning widely, makes an enquiry] So ... did you have a nice wedding night?

Phillip: [stepping back out onto center stage] Well we had sex 27 times if that's what you mean.

[The crowd squeals]

Jerry: Okay, okay. So let me get this all straight ... Stephanie is married to Phillip who Kris has secretly been in love with for years and years. Now Kris has recently become engaged to Dave who was recently spotted kissing Stephanie in Wal Mart. Now on top of this, Todd has just admitted to being in a sexual relationship with Kris.

Phillip: That's right Jerry.

Jerry: [looking sternly into the camera] It's times like these that one has to wonder whether or not these people are aware that they are quite clinically insane. Perhaps we should be spending more on psychiatric health funds in this country, perhaps we should just ban Vegas to cut down on impulse marriages. Perhaps I should get a new job. Thanks for watching folks - it's been great - but for now, take care of yourselves ... and each other.

[Cue cheesy background music and fade to black]

Ok stolen from Mrs H

I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone else during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn
I have had sex while surfing porn on the Internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights I cannot sleep without sex or masturbating
The bed is NOT my most favorite place to have sex.
I am turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for someone over a web cam.
I have had sex over a web cam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if they turn me on. not anymore but I have yes MRS H I KNOW TROLLOP
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped wax onto a lover's body.
I have had a lover drip wax onto my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence.
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PLAYBOY is tame, maybe even boring.
I have clicked on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn.
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn video.
Much of what I know about sex comes from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research given the opportunity.
My current lover does not sufficiently meet my sexual needs.
I currently have a "crush" on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships.
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I'm not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone snuggled up next to me
I have had sex under water.
I have had sex in the snow am in a polyamorous relationship.
I have to have music playing while having sex.
I have had more than ten orgasms in one night.*
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.*

My heart breaks

Everytime I have to say goodbye to Todd that is. It is so hard. We had a great weekend. I drove up there Friday after work and got there right before 7. We had a few beers and watched some movies (Bewitched and some old horror flicks on AMC) We then got up Saturday and went and looked a place we may rent. He would move in soon and I would follow in February. It was cute, i love it up there. We then went and looked around some furniture stores to get an idea of what we want to do for our place when we move in together. SO then we decide to go to this one little bar to have ONE beer. Well there was this old man there that came up and started talking to us, he had a huge wad of cash and said "You two just hang out and drink on me all day long" well ok! So like 5 1/2 hours later we are leaving the bar LOL Todd was not nearly as messed up as me. I was fine until I switched from beer to white russians. I was playing pool with a bunch of the locals and learned one lesson, when I move up there I will NEVER go to a bar without Todd! LOL It was like these men had never seen a woman before. Then we went back to his parents house, his mom made a kick ass dinner, we watched "Kingdom of Heaven" and "Land of the Dead" well he watched the latter I pretty much passed out for awhile. Then woke up and watched the original Friday the 13th, I can't believe how scared that movie used to make me LOL Then Sunday we just kicked around, washed and detailed his car then washed one of his dad's Harley's. I made us lunch and so did not want to leave yesterday afternoon. It is very hard being so far away from him during the week. Lord knows we are on the phone all the time or emailing from work, but it is still hard. I miss him tons already. Oh well, tonight we will go trick or treating, thanks Mrs H for letting us tag along in your neighborhood. So I guess I will see you guys tonight. I love ya and I am looking forward to going and hanging with movieman in tempe next Wednesday night for the movies. Have a great day guys!!!

Weekend Change of Plans

Well I am driving up to Payson tomorrow after work. Todd asked me if I would rather come up there and get away from it all. Well HELL YA!!! i love it there. I was just telling Mrs H I will probably be moving there in February. I will keep you posted.

Love ya!

Some Pictures

Bored

Yup bored at work. Blew through a ton of stuff and I am waiting for the next round of crap. My boss and his son are out of the office until Tuesday, I am the only person in the office who can write policies, discuss coverages, etc so ya a little lull right now is nice. I posted some more pictures in my yahoo pictures of this past weekend.

I am looking forward to Friday when Todd comes down. I will not have the kids so we are just going to have some beers and rent some horror movies. Any really good ones you could recommend movieman?

Love
The Diva princess

Meet the Parents

Well Todd met my dad and step mom this weekend and it went great. They loved him and he thought they were great, too. So that worked out well. I will post pictures once I get them developed. I had a nice time in the cool country. We all took the boys up by Sunrise Ski Resort to run like idiots and to see the beautiful colors changing.

Todd bought me a set of pearls, as I have always wanted some. There is a necklace, bracelet and earrings. I love them! It was really neat as I have not had a man buy me jewlery in like 15 years, so that was amazing. He is so good to me, I am feeling very lucky and I am very much in love. What a great feeling!

Hope everyone is well. I thought of Mrs H last night when I was watching Grease on Channel 3! Love ya all!!!

Missing My Mom

I am jealous of Mrs H today, her mom is here and I so terribly am missing mine right now. I am hoping she can get out here next year sometime. If not I will not see her until we all go to Maine in July for the bi-annual family reunion. She is so awesome and it is hard being so far away, but she is so happy and things are going great for her so that is awesome.

Looking forward to kind of getting away. Todd has some classes down here Mon-Wed and his work put him up in a hotel in Old Town Scttsdale starting Sun night and I am going to stay there with him. So even though I have to work, it will be nice to have some quiet alone time at night with him. I am so happy right now and still feel so lucky to have met him. It is especially nice to be with a man that treats me like gold but also treats himself good, takes care of himself, cares about his appearance and is not a pot head! LOL

Oh well, hope everyone has a great weekend!

Love
the Diva Princess

Ok Stupid Quiz Time

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people... But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

You Are an Appletini

Most of the time, you're a typical party girl / guy. But when you get super sauced, you really up your sex appeal.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like your underwear to make you feel girlish and pretty. Let's hope you're a chick. You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

The Underwear Oracle

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Your Birthdate: December 27

Your birth on the 27th day of the month (9 energy) adds a tone of selflessness and humanitarianism to your life path. Certainly, you are one who can work very well with people, but at the same time you need a good bit of time to be by yourself to rest and meditate. There is a very humanistic and philanthropic approach in most of things that you do. This birthday helps you be broadminded, tolerant, generous and very cooperative. You are the type of person who uses persuasion rather than force to achieve your ends. You tend to be very sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you able to give much in the way of friendship without expecting a lot in return.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable. Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director City Manager - Judge - Lawyer Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Things are great

I really am a happy girl! Things with Todd keep getting better, he is awesome! I am solucky, if you told me a year ago when I was going through my Amex crap thatI would find a great job, a wonderful man to love and all would be right in my world I would have laughed and cried. I am blessed.

I do miss my friends though, we all need to plan on getting together soon. Hey Mrs H what's up for Halloween? Do you guys want to do the trick or treat thing again?

Love you all!!

thank you Mr and Mrs H!!!

For letting me do the party at your place. The kids had such a great time! I really appreciate it!

Love
the Diva Princess

Most wonderful weekend!

Thought I would share a picture of me and Todd from the other night. We had so much fun this weekend! Miss you guys and love you! Mrs H thanks for leaving the glasses out for me...

In a state of bliss

Well my friends things are still going great with Todd. We went camping Saturday and had just the best time, he makes me laugh, feel special and he treats me like a Princess. It such a nice feeling. Anyways Sunday morning we packed up and went and spent the day and the night at his parent's house. They were great people, we had a really nice time. I am taking Thursday and Friday off this week and he is going to come down tomorrow night and stay until Sunday. he has an interview tomorrow so I am keeping my fingers crossed. Hard to believe I met a nice guy and what is even more hard to believe is that he is a nice guy I actually lik him! I seem to usually be attracted to some real assholes. oh well hope you guys are ok. I miss ya and love ya and will see you on the 17th!

Love
The Diva Princess

My big fat dating life

Well it could not be better. I have actually taken my profile off the searching list since I have met Todd. He is so awesome. I love being treated like a Princess and getting to turn around and treat him good. Tuesday night was wicked cool, he came back down cause he had interviews lined up. Bill took the kids after work so Todd and I had the later evening to ourselves, we watched a movie and had a beer. He treats me with so much respect it is odd and wonderful. Emails me nice little letters at work, calls me before work, at lunch and at night before bed. I am very happy.

Anyways my roomie is not so much. I think he is a little jealous that I have a new person in my life so I do not have as much time for him. Long story and I will post later.

Movieman it was great to celebrate your birthday with you! Awesome party thrown Mrs H. I love you guys!!!!

Tomorrow Night

Yuppers I am bringing a date. How cool is it to have met a guy daring enough to meet my friends AND hang with my kid? (I will only have Kenny as Will is staying at his friends house)

Love you all!

Ok more dating updates

Well let's see, I broke things off with Spence. I was not about to stay involved with someone who I feel is a player, plus we both pretty much agreed a friendship was there was any ways.. Long story but whatever. Still talk to Matt but definately only as a friend!I have been talking this past week with a guy I am really intrigued with. His name is Todd, he is almost 37. He is moving from Payson to Scottsdale soon. He is coming down this weekend, which should be fun. We talk for hours on the phone every night. He is a nice guy that I think has some serious dating potential. I love talking to him on the phone. He is wicked cool!

So anyways that is what is going on with me.

The Online Dating Chronicles

What a crazy night. Ok I need to back up and give you some info. First I was over at Spence's again Sunday and we had a good time. He told me that his work and family life are crazy right now and he asked if I could bare with him, he is not sure when his schedule will break at all, but did ask if I could wait. Ok so that was fine. We emailed on Monday, emailed and talked on Tuesday, did one email Wednesday and I did not hear from him today. So I figured that was his way of giving me the big blow off, even though Sunday he said we would get together tonight. Well since I did not hear from him I agreed to go out with this other guy Paul. As I am getting ready to go out Spence calls me and asks if we are still getting together, I said umm I am on my way out since I did not hear from you. He apologized, he was the only personal banker at his branch today so he was slammed. He was only supposed to work until 4:00 but did not leave until 7:00. (By the way I never realized how much crap a personal banker has to do, I have such a bigger appreciation for them now) anyways he said if I got done early to call him, that he had been planning on seeing me tonight. Too bad so sad I thought. Well I meet this guy Paul, we have talked and chatted and he seemed pretty cool. Then I met him WHAT A LOSER OMG he has no car, he said let's meet at the bowling alley by my house, cool I think we are going bowling, wrong we sat in the bar watching baseball, he has no money so he could not even afford a coke, I certainly wasn't about to pay, he bummed smokes from me and then I told him I was tired and had to cut it short but would drive him home, get this ya know who he lives with that drives him to work and everywhere HIS GRANDMA!!! Ok buddy 36 tome to grow up. Anyways that is an hour of my life I will never ever get back *sigh* so I called Spence and he was at the Casino playing some poker (the one Mrs_H and I each blew 20 bucks in 5 minutes at a few years ago)but told me to meet him at his house. So I ended up at his house hanging out again. I am glad I did we watched the movie Downfall, it is in German with sub titles and is about Hitler told through his secretary's eyes. Very good film. Movieman have you seen it? I was there for a couple of hours and now I am home exhausted. This was my second time meeting his 9 month old Shar Pei puppy. Baltimore is his name and he really likes me. I sat curled up next to Spence with his dog on my lap almost the whole time. I still do not know what to think, I mean I am sure he likes me or we would not keep seeing each other, but then again who knows. Oh well tired and rambling that's all folks. I took my profile off the plenty of fish, too many freaks emailing me and I think I may see what happens with Spence. Keeping options open though. There is one other guy I have talked to alot, may meet him this weekend. He is a nice guy I think and he is an ex-NFL player.

Love
The Diva Princess

This is so cool!

This was dead on for me.


I thought you guys would like to try this out.

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Ok so I lied

I actually met him on a website that Rob told me about because it is totally free. Sorry I just don't want to carry around the "internet dating" stigma. Lord knows I am not meeting people any other way. Well sure it does not help I only go out to gay bars with my roommate LOL but still. Anyways I talked with him again last night after work and we will be getting together tonight. Like I said I believe he could be all he says he is but I am very cautious. At least I have seen his place, so I know he has nice things and no girl living there, I have his work number and have called him there, so I know he really does for a living what he says, I have seen the pictures of him from when he did pro baseball (the farm leagues for the expos and pirates) and his pictures from 5 years of pro golf (so I know he is not bullshitting me on that)

Sorry I did not tell you the "whole" story, I knew I eventually would. I love you and just was not in the mood to get a lot of shit.

Love
The Princess

I hate this dating thing

I feel like throwing up, why do I even do this? I just wish I could read minds and know for sure what someone is thinking, feeling etc. So this guy seems really great, we talk and email everyday, whenever he leaves me messages it is always hey gorgeous or hey beautiful hope you are having a good day blah blah really nice person. But I get a leery feeling, like is he also pursuing 10 other people right now? I actually asked him what he was looking for when he joined the site, I asked if he wanted this to be a friendship, f*** buddies or to see if there is more. he told me since we do not know each other well enough yet he cannot say but that he thinks I am a great person and he wants to see what happens, but that he is the type to only be with one person at a time. For some reason I have a feeling he also talking to others which I would be cool with if I only knew. LOL I am actually really cool about that stuff just let me know. I talk to other guys the only difference is they have all been losers lol. Sometimes I wish I could hook up with a guy I knew well and did not have to go through all this beginning of the dating experience questions in my head, but chances are if I knew them well i would not date them or they are married, got a girlfriend lol or are like a brother to me. Oh well such is life just had to vent.

i think i am just going to give up on dating. If the right guy comes along and just sweeps me off my feet that will be cool, but I am done looking!!!

The next date

Well Sunday night I saw him again. This time I went and hung out at his place. Nice place and nice furniture. I had a nice time with him again. He is cute and makes me laugh and is very nice to me. I just hate this whole dating thing I really do. I do not know enough to know if he is genuine in all he says, to be able to really read his body movemements, all guys are nice at first. Will this one stay nice or be a big trolloping jerk? Oh well I will just enjoy it for now and ride this out.

I guess one good thing is he does email or call each day, so that is nice. I know he is busy ALOT with his job so it is nice for him to take that time. Oh well we will see, I am still keeping my eyes and options open though!

Love
S.

Ok the date update

First of all I was not a trollop LOL I did not post yesterday as I was not feeling real well. Any ways we only went out for a little while. He had been at the vet all day with his puppy who had an allergic reaction to something and then had a reaction to the medicine the vet gave him.

So we went to Starbucks and talked, he is very nice, alot like me actually. I am 4 days older then him lol. We have been talking alot since Thursday and I will be seeing him again tomorrow night. He is cute, sweet and funny. I think you will like him if I decide to make him pass the friend test. Ha Ha

Oh well I need to go vaccuum and I have laundry to do. I love ya!

Date Nite

Yes I have a date tonight, we shall see how it goes and I will post for everyone (ok all 2 of you who read my crap lol)

Mrs_H I was talking to Ginger yesterday is it ok if we still do joint birthday party for Kenny and Connor in September? We were thinking since Con's birthday is 9/10 and Kenny's is 9/24 we would do it right smack in the middle on 9/17 (that is a weekend you have Taylor also I believe) Let us know. Oh and joking around I told her I could piss you off by inviting Steve and Trina and their kids DO NOT WORRY I REALLY WILL NOT DO THAT TO YOU!!! I like them but respect you and your house so I will not bring over anyone you do not like. At least if Ginger brings Jerry and you are not talking to him he will not talk to you, where as Steve and Trina will keep talking to you even if you try to ignore them.

Hey Uncle Movie man you are invited too and I hope you are there!!!!

Love ya guys

The Princess

It is Final!!!

As of 3:09pm yesterday July 14th I am officially divorced. I feel a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Thanks guys for your support I love ya!

Tomorrow is the day

Yup divorce court at 1:15pm. I am filled with all kinds of emotions, relief, excitement, some sadness as I never wanted to be a divorce statistic (who does) and actually some fear. I am really doing this and moving on with my life. That part I feel very good about. I am sick of relying on others, I feel as though I am finally coming into myself at the age of 32 almost 33. I hope i have done well for my children, as kids of divorced parents I know it can be hard for them i am grateful that why yes every once in awhile Bill and I would like to pull each others hair out (or do that stomach thing Mrs_H has lol) we do get along and both of us are very concerned for the well being of our children. He is a good dad, he loves them and that i know is a blessing. Those two boys are the best thing that has ever happened to me, when I see them smile at me and say "I love you mom" I just feels so good inside. Kenny told me that he wants to marry me lol, I told him I am sorry honey but we cannot, he said fine I want a wife just like you and we will live with you forever and take care of you forever. Unbelieveable the feeling when that is said.

Anyways I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow. then comes the fun part of changing my name back to my maiden name. I love you all!

Another weekend over...

I cannot believe we are heading into mid July, where does the time go. I had a pretty good relaxing weekend, not the rush rush of the past few. I did have to go take a stupid 4 hour parenting skills class that is required for my divorce. It was great to know I was doing things right by my kids but man was it boring and I was so tired as I had gone to karaoke at a gay bar Friday night. Oh yes I was in my hey day and had a great time!

Mom made it through the hurricane just fine, where she lives just got a ton of rain. I miss her more and more everyday. My roommate and I are silly and put our pics on hotornot.com, right now he is beating me with a rating of 9.5 and I am a 9.1 lol we are dorks. I certainly would not rate myself a 9, more like a high 7 or an 8. Weird how we look at ourselves different then others do. I am though at a very content point in my life where I am happy with who I am and I like being single. I used to think if I did not have a man in my life something was wrong with me or I was somehow less then, now I realize I am fine just being alone. It feels good to rely on just me to make me happy.

Oh well I am just blabbering now and need to get ready for work. Have a great day my friends.

Thanks for the quizzes Phillip

You scored as Idealist. Idealism centers around the belief that we are moving towards something greater. An odd mix of evolutionist and spiritualist, you see the divine within ourselves, waiting to emerge over time. Many religious traditions express how the divine spirit lost its identity, thus creating our world of turmoil, but in time it will find itself and all things will again become one. Idealist 75% Romanticist 69% Cultural Creative 69% Existentialist 50% Fundamentalist 50% Postmodernist 44% Modernist 31% Materialist 6% What is Your World View? (updated) created with QuizFarm.com

Ok so what kind of killer am I?

You kill with
magic.
You are very skilled with magic, but have poor
fighting skills. But it doesn't really matter
anyway since it can be as powerful as other
weapons. You are probably missunderstood by
people and have some pain inside you. You are
not the kind of person to start a fight, but if
you are provocted you respond. You probably
don't have that many friends either though you
might want some. According to you life is a
lonely journey and you try not to care to much.
Most people who are witches or anything similar
is thought to be evil and want to see all
people suffer. That however is not true. You
don't feel that much joy seeing others in pain.
You are probably peaceful and quiet when left
alone.

Main weapon: Potions and spells
Quote: "A man can be destroyed but
not defeated" -Ernest Hemingway
Facial expression: Blank eyes

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What a cool day

Yesterday was an awesome day for me. Everymorning at work we all meet for a few minutes before the phone lines are open to go over what each other is up to. Well yesterday my boss said, "Can I take 5 minutes to rave about you?" I said sure, so he goes on to say "You have exceeded our expectations here Stephanie, you are doing such an awesome job. We are not going to do a 90 day review in August, effective tomorrow you are making $14.00 an hour!" I was making $12.50 so that is a buck fifty raise an hour! I have not even been there 2 months yet. It was so awesome, I was so happy.

Also on another note my mom's house closed, she is telling Randy to kiss off today and she moves in to her new place and starts her own business this weekend. I am so proud of her!

Have a great day my friends.

I AM SO FURIOUS!!!!

So I am talking with my soon to be ex and he advises me he feels like he is being played with my whole moving to Florida thing. I asked what he means, he starts quoting stuff that was in an email to my mom!!! HE read my fucking emails!!! What is really funny is I had been joking with my mom about having a live in babysitter when I go, it was a joke!

He also thinks that the reason I did not want him dating a former friend of mine last year is that if he did and was happy I would not be able to move! WTF???? It had nothing to do with that it has to do with the fact SHE WAS MY FRIEND I thought that I would be ok and I wasn't and HE chose to not date her because of that I did not force him.

I am just so pissed I thought we were past this crap and we were building a friendship on trust. Well that is gone.

Me and the boys on Will's Birthday

A little lonely

Today I am feeling a little down and lonely. I do not know why, I have a place to live with an awesome roommate, I have two great goods, a pretty good job where I work for amazing people. I guess it is just I wish I had more time to spend with my friends. I do not have a lot of people I consider my close friends, those that I do know who they are. I miss doing things with them. I realize part of the problem is I cater to my exes moods and end up with the kids most of the time, to appease him. He never says he will not keep them, I can just tell by his body language he would rather be alone. Or if he is going to take them, my youngest always says he would rather stay with me, how can I say no to that cute little face?

Oh well things will get better. Any of my friends that read this please know that I love you and I realize I may seem like a flake at times. I really do not mean to be. I have still been fighting a depression and while that is not an excuse it may help you to understand where I am at. If Phillip reads this please know I am sorry once again about the movie thing, I am so glad we talked at Kris's that night, you are one of the coolest people I know and can see why Kris has stayed friends with you for all these years.

Have a great day everyone. I am going to go take my zoloft, snap out of this funk and go to the pool today with my Kenny Boo.

What a Week

Well belive it or not I got to the court house this week and filed the stupid paper for a default divorce, this way I do not need to wait for him to do his part anymore. I will win by default. Does anyone really win in divorce? hmm.... anyways i can call July 1st to set up the court date. That day I will appear and my divorce will be granted.

So to the great Kris, yes it is going to be done and this journey is almost over.